So I haven’t written anything in a long time… Originally this blog started out as way of me documenting my 100 days of no alcohol… as we all know that ended disastrously. Then this blog became somewhere I used to just type out all the random crap which surrounded my head for a while… but now I am making a change. This blog is no longer gonna be called E’s Journey, because recently I have realised something.
At the beginning of writing this I thought there was a final destination…
That I would eventually reach a location where I felt like I finished…
but now I know that life is a constant journey…
This blog will mainly be called Emma Milligan. A blog which follows the continuous development of my life.. It will document the big moments… the small… the random thoughts which surround my head… just basically anything which comes to mind.
Anyway so yep… The reason I have started this blog again is because I want to talk about something, something which I have been thinking about a lot recently… self worth…
I have written on this blog before about my struggles with mental health, and it is something which I am constantly working on… however something which I don’t talk about is how my struggles with mental health effect my relationship with the term
Self Worth
For the longest time I have doubted my self worth, and it has resulted in me relying on others to validate my self worth. For a long time I didn’t understand, or honestly think that this was a problem. It wasn’t that I always relied on other people… it just meant that I would try everything to keep others happy, often putting my needs secondary. Sometimes this did not effect me to much… but occasionally it ended pretty disastrously. When my mental health is at its worth I struggle to cope with situations like this… and certain events can lead to me feeling worthless, and it begins to effect every aspect of my life… work, school, university everything.
I know I have said this many times on this blog, but this time it is time to make a change. For those who don’t know on of my top shows to watch is Rue Pauls Drag Race… and recently I have started to think about ‘if you can’t love yourself how in the hell you gonna love somebody else’, and it’;s so true. When I at my lowest, thats when I struggle to love others. The times where I feel worthless, when I don’t even feel able to love myself, are the times when I rely to much on others. 
So from now on… I am going focus on loving me…. and being honest with my feelings .
Love
Emma x
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