So recently in the news I have noticed there has been a lot of talk about, the benefits, and disadvantages of social media… Dont worry this isn’t a political post or a post about my views on social media, this is about my presence on social media, and looking back over my various years, on social media, and seeing how even though many things change, e.g. my hairstyle, clothing, music style, but something things never change.
Yesterday evening I decided to go onto my Youtube Channel and look back through all of my old videos, and it really made me think about something.
This year I turn 21.
I know terrifying right, and when you turn 21 people expect you to have your life together, I have just bought my first car, and I am having to budget my wages, to ensure I have enough money to live!
You are viewed by many as being officially an adult.
You are expected to know what you are doing with your life. You are officially able to buy alcohol in America, you are expected to be sensible with your money, and all of the adult stuff.
These realisations, and expectations have recently been making me feel like I am loosing touch with the child that I once was. When I say child I don’t mean the small six year old child who would run around in play parks, or play hop scotch in the school playground. I am talking about the 15 year old version of me. The version of me who was old enough to have my own independence, however had none of stress and responsibilities of early adult life.
I would often look back on that time, and cringe, about some of the things I did back then, (like a really bad live stream improvisation, which is still available online, if anyone ever wants to try and find it haha), and want to forget them from my memory, however yesterday I wanted to be back at that age. I was feeling nostalgic so I started looking through my old facebook account, and Youtube channel videos, and rather than making me cringe, or want to burn everything it reminded me why I am putting myself though the stress of university, and the stress of re teaching myself to drive, it because I am trying to fulfil everything which that younger version of me wanted to achieve.
It also reminded me that:
No matter how many different hairstyles I have
No matter how many fashion changes I go thorough
How many things about me change, some things never will,
That I am the person I am now because of the people I have been, and that no matter how much I want to change the past version of me, or wish the videos which are online weren’t, I would not be in the place I am without those previous versions!
Please watch the youtube video and let me know what you think!
Love
Emma xx
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