I don’t remember much from Primary school. Of course I remember learning things like my A,B,C’s, my 1,2,3’s my time tables, and how to read and write. However when it comes to actual activities in classes I can rarely recall, the words, and phrases which teachers would say to me. However there is one particular lesson which I remember my teacher giving in Primary 5,which I have never forgotten, and I carry with me to this day. She said:
“In your life there is only going to be one person who knows every part of you… and that is yourself. We are made up of many different parts, which stay together to make a whole person. There are many people who think they know you, but they only know the parts which you show to them.”
I don’t remember the rest of the class, or the topic of the lesson as a whole, however through out my life, I have held onto this one idea. The idea that there are many different sides to our personalities, some which we love, and we show to those we care about, and some which we hide away, and don’t let the people around us get to know.
The reason I am writing about this lesson I had a school, right now (and I have mentioned the idea of people being like Jigsaw’s in my day 5 blog,) is because recently It became very clear to me just how many different parts of my own personality, there are. Recently I have felt like the jigsaw which I am, has parts which are not in the correct places, and parts of my personality I do not always show began to become more, and more clear to those around me, and rather than asking for help, or learning to embrace them, I tried to carry on like I normally would, to keep those around me happy, because this was not the Emma they knew. However this did not work, as I could not explain to them, why I was feeling the way I did, and I became angry towards them, and kinda lost myself along the way. The way I lost these people around me, hurt, and still does, but then I remembered what my teacher told me all the way back in Primary school.
It is ok to be made up many different elements, and you are the only person who knows every part, and you do not have to change any part of yourself in order to please anyone. Thinking about this lesson I was taught made me remember that people often focus on certain parts of your personality which they like, no matter how much you know this person, or how much they mean to you, if they see apart they didn’t know was there they may leave you, and that’s ok…
It made me realise that I want to surround myself with people who, I don’t feel I need to hide elements of my personality from, and who accept every part of my jigsaw puzzle, the parts which I love, as well as he pieces I don’t.
Love
E xx
E's Journey 