So for anyone who hasn’t read my previous posts, or who doesn’t know me in real life, I have mentioned that I am using these 100 days to improve myself as a human being. I began this journey after a series of events, which made me realise something had to change, and today was I turned a corner.
Up until this point in the year my years not been great, and rather than dealing with my problems, I effectively ran away from my issues, thinking it would help. However even though in some ways it did help, (e.g. I have made friends who I hope to have in my life forever) in others it made everything worse, and because of this I have made many mistakes which I do regret a lot.
Before I effectively ran away to the best job in the world, I was feeling so low that I walked away, and lost interest in my passions, and doing things which makes me happy – which for me is my music. I can’t explain why I did this, but at the time it just felt like what I needed to do, but I was wrong. One thing that the last few months have taught me is
“Don’t ever give up on what makes you happy”
No matter how miserable you feel, if you let go of your passions then you won’t feel better. When I refer to the best job in the world I am talking about when I was teaching music to children aged between 7 and 17. When I first arrived at this job I let the way I had been feeling get in the way, this impacted on the way I interacted with the people I cared about, I was so nervous to do my job, that I continued to mess up, and I needed constant reassurance to prove to myself that I was doing a good job, and for anyone who had to deal with that,
I am sorry it was not fair for me to do that to you.
Today I made a decision. For the last few days I have been dealing with, and coming to terms with everything I did, and everything that happened to me this summer. I have spent a lot of time crying, shouting, and thinking about ways that things could of ended differently, and ways which I could fix this current situation. This led me to a lot of self blaming, and a lot anger towards another person. However I came to realise that sometimes
even though letting go is hard, it is most commonly the right thing to do. 
After I had this realisation I did something which I haven’t done in a while, I went busking. I know for most people reading this, this seems like a small thing, however when this was one of the best things I could of done. When you have spent so much time feeling as though you have to avoid you passions, its so difficult to go back to it, especially after you have let your emotions run your life for so long.
Anyway this was a very long winded blog in order to get to this point;
Never give up on your passions, because when you do it makes everything a lot more difficult – doing what makes you happy is the most important thing.
Also I wanted to include some videos of me performing at an event this week, this is me at my happiest.
This video is my original song called Fight The Noise.
This is my version of Caladonia by Dougie MacLean
Thanks
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