So the is the first official day of my journey. I know this sounds dramatic, and like the start of one of those cheesy teenage fiction books, but please here me out.
Over the last three months I have made many, mistakes which have changed me as a person. Due to my actions and hers , I have lost the person who I thought was my best friend, put myself into situations which were not healthy for me, hurt people I care about, and put myself in a lot of danger.
These series of events well and truly messed with my head, and have started to shape how I now look at the world marlins me. This summer someone asked me, “Are you gonna make any lifestyle changes when you get home?” and when she asked me and I didn’t know what she meant, but know I see what she meant.
One of the huge problems I have had was alcohol. It wasn’t that I was drinking every day, or that I needed it to function, but every time I drank it would react with my head making me do stupid, and reckless things. Over the last three months as I have already said I have put myself in a situations which were not safe, made choices which didn’t benefit anyone, and in fact hurt me, and hurt and pushed away the people I was meant to care about. Of course there are more ham one sides to stories, and I know that I was not totally to blame, but If I hadn’t drank, I could of stopped the situations from developing into what they became, and we would not be in the place I am in now.
Reflecting on my time over the last few months, I have decided to make some changes. One of the biggest changes I intend to make is, I intend to cut out alcohol for 100 days. Today is currently the 17th off September 2018, and in 100 days it will be the 26th of December, between now and then I will not have a single drink. Not on a night out with friends, not on Christmas Day, no more drinks, of any form. I am also going to use these 100 days to make other positive change in my life. I am going to go back to the gym, something which I miss and I wish I had kept up, I am going to eat healthier, and I am going to try to only have people In my life who matter to me.
Over the next couple of months I have a lot to look forward to and a lot of challenges to face. I am about to start my third year of university, and I want to be the best possible version of me that I can be, and I think this is the best place to start.
I am going to use this blog to document my journey across over the next 100 days, I will write something every day, no matter how dull my day is, or if I have an interesting day. I know this isn’t going to be easy, but I believe that I can do it.
If anyone does ever read this, and is going on a similar journey please feel free to contact me through the contact section on the blog.
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